Memories...

At work today I walked past 2 relatives outside intensive care sobbing their hearts out. Then I remembered that was me 13 years and a day ago. Think its important to remember things like that, in my job. And probably why I had tears in my eyes when I got thanked for looking after a very anxious patient today.

My 28th Birthday

It was my 28th last weekend - we were pretty lucky with the weather - Sunday was lovely, Saturday couldn't decide. My birthday weekend consisted of:

• Picking up the new car and attempting to go for a nice fast drive and a picnic but failing
• Lunch at a lovely restaurant with shit service in Chichester
• A gorgeous Raymond Blanc birthday cake
• Drinks with friends and dancing away to great tunes at Drift into the early hours
• Birthday breakfast at Lou Lous
• A lovely day in Southsea visiting the Thai food Festival, a VW festival, bollywood music at the bandstand and many many people.

I then felt a bit ill (dodgy Chicken satay) and we didn't make it out for dinner - instead got take-away pizza. Much better birthday than last year when I was working!

Thailand

Thailand was amazing - I could have payed someone to drive me around the country and just stared. We landed in Krabi airport then got a taxi for the 40 minute trip to the airport and the journey was amazing - we passed elephants, 25 people on the back of a pickup truck, 5 people on the back of a moped (eek!), wooden shacks that were family houses right next to big luxurious houses, wooden houses that had huge expensive cars outside them, stalls selling anything and everything, hundreds of dogs, 10 garden centres in a row...... Unlike anything I have ever seen before. We managed to do very little, and only had one day in the whole trip that was a proper touristy day. All in all it was a lovely country, very colourful with bowls of flowers everywhere and little shrines to buddha/the king. I am very much looking forward to going back in the future (at a less rainy time = less turbulent flight) - it has inspired me to learn to cook thai food and I'm even trying to find my own little perfect buddha for the garden. I'd quite like to have an orchid in every drink I have too but that could work out a little too expensive.

Sad day

Today I feel quite low. My now husband got on a flight to Bangkok this morning and so I am all alone. I did some shopping, and even got a free bag (courtesy of my lovely father), then I mowed the lawn, then destroyed the lawn with the strimmer. I don't feel like eating and my tummy feels kinda funny. And Ayesha is following me everywhere I go.

All in all I feel sad. Just want my Philip to hug. Think the fact I have 4 long, busy days at work with noone to come home too is part of the reason.

It doesn't really feel like I'm going on honeymoon in 6 days.

And I am so so worried about leaving Ayesha. Even though she has a lovely catsitter.

Ok, moan over. Will try to be happier now.

I have a life again

I feel like I've started living again, feel like I wasn't in Cardiff, and I think it's Southsea thats given me my life back. We walk to the pub, we walk to the sea and through pebbles into the water, we have amazing live music venues within minutes of our house. Then there's the colour of this place in summer - its surreal, unlike anything i've ever seen. Last weekend we had a picnic on the common then rode our bikes into the sea fog in Eastney. And we watched the grand national in a pub with friends, not just in the house. I love it, its making me feel like me again, making us more more creative and inspired.
And its all by luck that we are living here - thank you, whoever messed up my job placement last year!